Sunday, March 22, 2015

A birthday letter to my sweetie Bean

She has magic in her eyes.

Do you see it?  The wealth of possibilities just bubbling over?  She believes absolutely anything is possible.  She thinks I can do anything….and is just beginning to question if I will be around forever.
She makes me want to wear a cape, to sweep her away from any tough situation, to wrap her in my arms and keep her safe. Everyday.
Today she turns six.
It sounds so trite to say that the last 2,191 days have been blinked away, but it most definitely feels as though they have.  I blinked and she was born.  I blinked and she could walk.  I turned around to cook dinner and she was talking.  I stopped for 15 minutes to help her brother with school work and she could sing, turn a cartwheel (well…sort of) and swim.  I ran to the grocery store and she up and started Kindergarten. (damn grocery store)

Of course, what I’m neglecting here, are the million hugs and “I love you, Mommys”.  Each one of those is etched into my soul and though they are fleeting – they are the most special because they mean she feels loved, she feels cared for and respected.
So…without further adieu, here is a quick note to my birthday girl:
My Sweet Girl,
When you were born, I was so taken by your dark hair and those chocolate eyes, I couldn't bear to look away.  I forced myself to let other people hold you, if only to spread the joy that seeped from your pores.
I now find myself having a similar experience.  While you have grown from a helpless infant to an  ‘I can do it’ toddling toddler to the independent little treasure you are now, I have often held my breath, hoping I would know when to hold your hand and when to stand behind you with a little push.
When I look into your eyes, I see possibilities.  You truly believe ANYTHING can happen.
And that is magic….
The kind of magic I will bottle and do my best to sprinkle over you as you sleep each and every night.  You can’t put a price on that kind of faith in the world.
During this last year, I have seen the most significant changes in you – more than walking, more than talking….as these are tremendous milestones, they seem rooted in the physical.  What I am witnessing now is the growth of your mind, of your heart.  You are learning compassion and empathy.  You are learning to give, to hurt, and to be you.
You are a beautiful little soul Bean.  From you I have learned patience, I have experienced family, and I have evolved.  I am a better person for having you in my life.
Happy, Happy Birthday Baby Girl…..wishing you a million days that reflect the possibilities you see.
I love you to the moon and back and every stop in between.
Love, Mommy