Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Plateau = Motivation we are. Weigh-in day.

I have to admit...I'm kind of addicted to Wednesday's. I like seeing the progress that I'm making on a weekly basis. It's fun to watch the scale move in the direction that I want it to. Unfortunately, that didn't happen this week. I know...I know. It's a's to be expected.

Well...I'm pissed. I guess that's the great thing about being stubborn - I have the ability to turn a potentially negative quality into something positive. am I going to do that? First of all...I'm going to kick this week's ass.

That includes not eating (or drinking) all of my extra points, really starting to exercise (more than once a week) and truly paying attention to the type of groceries that I'm putting away (and I'm not talking about putting food in the pantry either).

My goal is to get out and ride my bike this week. When you see my bike, you'll know that I'm not trying to be the next Lance Armstrong. lol.

I'll definitely be "that mom" when I hook the bike trailer up to the back of it and pack the babes up and set off on a cruise of our neighborhood. But...if that's what it takes to help me reach my goals...then so be it.

So while I may not have gained weight this week, I did gain a little bit of momentum and motivation in order to really buckle down this week and make my efforts pay off. After all - I'm totally worth it!

Thursday, April 19, 2012

I was that girl

A few weeks ago, I was sitting in my WW meeting - listening to our leader. She was talking about how she can tell when someone has lost weight. Their shirt is tucked into their pants and their belt shows.

I never really thought about it in those terms. I never tuck my shirt in and I hardly ever wear a belt. I mean really...what's the point? My hips and stomach have always kept my pants where they needed to be.

So it struck me completely out of the blue last week while I was preparing for a lunch meeting. I was meeting a reporter for lunch to discuss upcoming media opportunities. I went to the bathroom before I left the building and had that "Ah-ha!" moment.

I couldn't go out looking like a complete slob. My shirt was way too big and my pants...well, that's a whole other story. Since losing my ass, all of my pants fit weird in the seat and legs.

Anyway...I digress. Back to my story.

I immediately tucked in my button down shirt - exposing my belt. I know...random. I wore a belt that day. It was amazing to see that transormation in the mirror. I looked...pulled together. You could see the definition in my waist. You could even see that my belt was on the very last notch. It actually took me a minute to realize that all of the hard work that I've been putting into my transformation has actually started to come to fruition.

Needless to say...I bought my first pair of size 8 work pants that week. Here's what's even more incredible. My girlfriend owns a resale boutique - Kelly Lane Boutique. All of her clothing is to die for! If you are in the area, you should totally check her out!

Anyway. Back to incredible. skinny jeans that I received at Christmas aren't so skinny anymore. They are really baggy and look horrible. I went to Kelly's on Saturday and tried on the skinny jeans that she had in her shop. For the first time in God knows how long, I tried on a size 6...AND they fit!!! Hallelujah!!!

I stepped outside of the dressing room and asked Kelly if they looked okay. I mean, really. The last time that I was a size 6 was when I was 12 years old.

Needless to say, those Citizens for Humanity skinny jeans looked amazing and they came home with me. So did the size 6 Old Navy skinny jeans. lol.

While this road definitely hasn't been easy, I'm starting to see the pay offs. It's not about clothes or new shoes. It's about transforming my attitude towards eating and most importantly...myself. I keep reminding myself that I am worth it and that I can do this.'s to a stellar week of not only meeting my goals, but finally being able to be a little bit kinder to myself. Because I AM WORTH IT!!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

For the first time.... a long time, I finally noticed a difference in the way that I look and feel. Thank God! I was beginning to worry that I wasting my money. lol

On Monday, I got up and dressed for work like any typical day. I put on my black pants and my bright green button down shirt. I thought that my pants seemed a little bit looser than normal, so I put a belt on and ran out the door.

I did my thing at the office and by 10:00, I had to pee something fierce. And that's when I noticed it. I was washing my hands and looked up to check myself out. I was a complete disaster! My pants were too big, the butt was completely sagging, and I could have fit another person into my shirt! The fashionista was gone and was replace by some frumpy chick staring back at me!

I immediately tucked my shirt into my pants and it pulled me together more than what I was when I walked into the bathroom. Unfortunately, there was nothing that I could do about my pants hanging on my body.

When I got home, I did the unthinkable...I put on a pair of size 10 pants. I cringed at the thought. I mean, up until now, I haven't noticed a difference. To my pleasant surprise, those pants didn't really fit either! So I panicked! What in the hell was I going to wear to work on Tuesday? I obviously couldn't go in naked...wouldn't want to start a riot!

So Tuesday morning, I carefully slid into a pair of black dress pants that I haven't worn in about forever. They were a size 8 and I kept my eyes closed the whole time. When they buttoned...and zipped...easily, I opened my eyes and looked in the mirror. I couldn't believe it.

They actually fit and looked good.

A lot of people seem to think that this whole transformation is easy for me. It's not. I love food. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm not hungry. I eat just to eat. However, I feel like I've made some sort of transformation over these past 13 weeks. I feel like I finally have a healthy relationship with food.

Now, don't get me wrong. I am totally vain and can admit it. I want to look and feel incredible for the first time in my life. Plus, I might also want to wear a bikini this summer. I haven't worn one since I was 7 and I'm pretty sure that I want to do it just once.

So as of today, I have lost 19.6 pounds. I've been trying to put that into perspective and this is what I found:

Can you believe that I have lost that giant glob of shit on the bottom of the shelf? Holy Toledo!

So with that in mind...I'm outtie! xoxo

Thursday, April 5, 2012

What's my anchor?

Everybody has something that they anchor themselves to in order to get them through. It's funny, because that was the topic of yesterday's meeting. My leader held up a ceramic figurine of a scrappy puppy drinking out of a water bowl. Tad bit odd, but it reminded her of her Grandmother - one of the strongest women she knew.

While I find that to be completely heart felt and super sweet, I have to admit that my anchor is a little bit more selfishly trendy. lol.

I have a thing for shoes. Shocking right? I decided when I started this journey that for every 10 pounds that I lost, I would do something fabulous for myself. In my mind, that means that for every 10 pounds that I lose, I get a new pair of shoes!

I didn't buy a pair when I lost my first 10. I had a moment of clarity and decided that I should probably wait. Well...that didn't last too long. A few weeks ago I reach the 15 pound mark and bought myself a pair of hot pink cork wedges. I have to admit...they are pretty bad ass. And they make my looks look amazing. ;)

So this week I lost another two pounds! Yay me, right?! I'm officially down 18 pounds and am only two pounds away from reaching another milestone. Although I decided that I'm going to hold off on my next shoe purchase until I hit the 25 pound mark. That is a pretty significant milestone in WW and by that point, I'm going to need a new pair of Sperry's to get me through the summer.

So with 12 more pounds to go, I can totally see the end in sight. Here's to achieving those milestones and getting a few new pairs of killer heels in the process!