Wednesday, April 11, 2012

For the first time.... a long time, I finally noticed a difference in the way that I look and feel. Thank God! I was beginning to worry that I wasting my money. lol

On Monday, I got up and dressed for work like any typical day. I put on my black pants and my bright green button down shirt. I thought that my pants seemed a little bit looser than normal, so I put a belt on and ran out the door.

I did my thing at the office and by 10:00, I had to pee something fierce. And that's when I noticed it. I was washing my hands and looked up to check myself out. I was a complete disaster! My pants were too big, the butt was completely sagging, and I could have fit another person into my shirt! The fashionista was gone and was replace by some frumpy chick staring back at me!

I immediately tucked my shirt into my pants and it pulled me together more than what I was when I walked into the bathroom. Unfortunately, there was nothing that I could do about my pants hanging on my body.

When I got home, I did the unthinkable...I put on a pair of size 10 pants. I cringed at the thought. I mean, up until now, I haven't noticed a difference. To my pleasant surprise, those pants didn't really fit either! So I panicked! What in the hell was I going to wear to work on Tuesday? I obviously couldn't go in naked...wouldn't want to start a riot!

So Tuesday morning, I carefully slid into a pair of black dress pants that I haven't worn in about forever. They were a size 8 and I kept my eyes closed the whole time. When they buttoned...and zipped...easily, I opened my eyes and looked in the mirror. I couldn't believe it.

They actually fit and looked good.

A lot of people seem to think that this whole transformation is easy for me. It's not. I love food. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm not hungry. I eat just to eat. However, I feel like I've made some sort of transformation over these past 13 weeks. I feel like I finally have a healthy relationship with food.

Now, don't get me wrong. I am totally vain and can admit it. I want to look and feel incredible for the first time in my life. Plus, I might also want to wear a bikini this summer. I haven't worn one since I was 7 and I'm pretty sure that I want to do it just once.

So as of today, I have lost 19.6 pounds. I've been trying to put that into perspective and this is what I found:

Can you believe that I have lost that giant glob of shit on the bottom of the shelf? Holy Toledo!

So with that in mind...I'm outtie! xoxo

1 comment:

  1. You serve as an incredible inspiration to me. You know what I'm up to these days, and it's a hard shift to become truly healthy. I seriously LOVE food and sitting on my butt watching tv, but...I love myself and my kids more. You are an example of success. Thank you for sharing your journey. XO!